Friday, February 5, 2010

Trust Walk

Things are crazy...but good.

This is already a BIG year.  We are so incredibly blessed and we are living by faith each day.

Both of us are redefining our visions of success, family, maturity, and goals.  It's a daunting, yet EXCITING time for us.  We're poised to experience many major changes this year and all of it is requiring that we place our complete trust in God.  It's challenging!

Especially for me.

I'm a planner by nature.  I like lists.  I like checking things OFF of my lists.  I like knowing what to expect and when to expect it.  I like having a plan.  I'm not a control freak.  I'm actually pretty flexible.  I just like having some structure to things and knowing what comes next.

Right now, everything is out of my control.  But that's a good thing.  I'm learning SO MUCH through this.

Redefining your life is a humbling experience.

Success is no longer measured by a paycheck, but by the value my life has in investing in others.  Family is not just flesh and blood, but also our brothers and sisters in Christ.  Maturity doesn't mean having all the answers, but being comfortable admitting that you don't while also having the discipline to seek and find those answers.  It still requires silliness, youthfulness, and plenty of laughter.  And goals...well, let's just say that I'm working on letting God determine my goals, both short term and long term.  It's hard to break old habits.  It takes time and purposeful effort.  I've spent most of my life seeking to have the perfect job, status, paycheck, marriage, 2.5 kids, house with a white picket fence, and everything else this world tells me to value...but really, those things don't bring satisfaction and can really be very shallow.

I want more than that:  I want real substance.

For me, that means more of God and less of my petty desires.

He must increase, but I must decrease. ~ John 3:30

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