Call it what you will, but it is just plain laziness.
Yes, I have legitimately been busy with life as our lives are incredibly busy right now, but I don't want to make excuses. It really is no-holds-barred laziness. The fact of the matter is that I will do what I deem to be a priority.
I need to realize it's okay to skip packing one more box in order to sit down before or after my Bible study and take those several extra minutes to work on memorizing my verses.
Or I need to stop cruising through Pinterest and instead fill my mind with God's Word. Even if I'm looking at scripture wall art on there, it's not the same as working to inscribe it upon my heart.
Even in this, God is teaching me. He's teaching me to persevere and be diligent even more--especially when I really don't feel like it. He's revealing to me the things that I make a priority over Him. He's graciously convicting me and showing me how I still make so many truly unimportant tasks "have tos" in my daily life, thereby robbing time from Him to do as He wills. It may be time spent surfing the web even after I've grown bored with it. I do not believe it is sinful to surf the web in and of itself, but when I feel prompted by the Spirit that it's time to log off and I don't, well, then that's sin.
I want to be hyper-sensitive to the Spirit's prompting. I want to be so attuned to God's voice (and equally importantly obedient to His voice) that I don't go anywhere or do anything without His leading.
Seriously, the more I learn of Him, the more of Him I realize I need and the more of me I need to get rid of. At the same time, I am His child and I am so blessed to have victory in Jesus Christ. I am bathed in His grace, His mercy, and His forgiveness. He must increase, but I must decrease (John 3:30).
Now I leave you with this:
For this reason I kneel before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name. I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.